Well! First of all!  If any of you ever heard me say" If you have depression, think of some thing you like to do and never had time, and do it. It'll take your mind of the subject" Well for this I need to appoligise. Especially to our Kathryn. She went through such an ordeal that I should have realised you don't pull yourself up by your boot straps. But I had never had depression. So just drawed my own conclussion"Mistakenly" . Believe me it has nothing at all that helps or cures.. With out God's help in some way. 

       I knew when I came North that it was going to take a lot of ajustment on my part to get used to these winters after 30 years in FL' but never in my life had I experienced such a lonely empty world. And believe me,it was not that I had a life of ease. Far from it . I had faced a lot of adversity through life and through  God's grace  I handled it. And was not effected .,

          But this last winter was an especially hard one for me. We had a snow storm of about maybe 4 or 5" then before it moderated , we had an ice storm, Then an other snow storm.Then it stayed for about a week before I could even get the car out of the snow drift.( Thanks to Randy ! ) who finally was able to dig it out.

          But at about this same time Marla went in for a Biopsy on her left. Breast. They had done a cruel job to my standards, and really done a lot of probing before they hit the right spot. And she was black and blue plus a little red thrown in.(it was neg.)  but it was painful.

             Then making our bad matters worse. The dish washer had sprung a leak a few days before and was leaking  some. . When Randy pulled it out he found a lot of "Black mold" the worse kind. So he took Marla to his Mom's who lives near by..(Marla has a lot of allergies) While she was there her Mother in law fell outside, and broke  her left shoulder. So of course knowing Marla she pitched in and helped.. Randy left me stay here at home until he started to actually rip out the  wall, ( I didn't want to bother his Mom.) But He insisted I go to his Mom's for that night and stay until he got home the next day . He has a four wheel drive truck and he got in and out Then it was a while before Marla got home. I got so up set not being able to get out the drive way.or leave at all. I just wanted to set and cry, and maul over my situation. .

.       Childish ? I guess so, but I couldn't control it.. So when I went to the Dr, she diagnosed me as Depressive. I still felt I could help myself by trying to bring myself under control. Let me tell you here. "You can't" So I started to take medication. And that seems to help me a lot. I was a complete mess.

             So now Marla is doing pretty well ! She still has a lot of pain to put up with. But does walk a lot more than she did. If ever there was a women of iron. She must be it.. Well now that I've cryed on your shoulders you at least know we're doing o'k'.L/u  

O.K. it's offical! If Marla's health stays steady , we are starting out Mon. Feb.9th for the state of Fl. Some thing like an 800 mile trip I think. Nan and I have covered it a few times. Even when we were still blessed to have our Albert, we came a couple of times but I personally never though to check the mileage,. But that's all beside the point. I have a three fold reason that I pray we get to make the trip. First it will give little Marla a season of refreshment from this nasty weather. Then I too will enjoy being warmed in God's precious sun shine,(hopfully.) And maybe if I'm lucky I can get to see a few of my friendsd there in Fl.

                 My poor little toyota is still snowed in. I need some things to get ready for the trip . and I hate last minuet haste.But may have to stop at Frank and my "Wally Mart" on the way. Marla said even Randy with 4 wheel traction has trouble getting up the incline at the drive way. But if that's the only place that's not cleared yet , I'll  try.! If I get stuck I can always just come back in the house. (At least we have a warm house,) shame on me as "Margaret says". I should be thankful I don't have to share the barn with Foxy and friends "Right"?"

             Marla had been doing fairly well until last week. She was so miserable that Randy took her back to the Dr, I'm not sure if he ask or what. But he found out she is alergic to mold. A few days before she started having trouble with her respetory ( know that sp. is wrong , but I'm to tired to care! Sorry) system. Found out that she is allergic to mold. Well a few days before that, the dish washer sprung a leak. Ater a while it shorted out the electric and Marla just turnred it off. Randy was probably going to wait till week end to make repairs. Well some how it was detected that it had molded all along behind the dish washer. And it was the worst kind "Black Mold" So Randy took Marla to his Mom's until they got it fixed . He didn't make me go until they actually was going to tear it out the same day. So then he would'nt let me stay at the house. So poor old Nanna as  they call her had the whole group of us; Bless her heart she is such a kind and generous Lady. Marla just got to come home to stay later today. We"ll guess I better close this off, as my eyes are gettig tired . So" I'll hang the close on ths line " As they say and ask for prayers for all to work out as God would have it to be. l/u all,